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記憶的水潭（心智） 撈起雜質廢物後 依然需要等待，回憶的細碎物緩慢下沉 管理者小女孩（意志），待在潭邊 附近那個金銀色的植物葉片（靈魂） 散射著光芒（靈性） 她托著臉，看著（意識） (02/28 at night) ++++++++ (噢天) 我看見光亮的那個 是不是我的靈魂 好像金銀色的 植物構造 小女孩 她沒消失 she is still alive she is coming back... 她正在活過來 正 要跟我一起 甦醒 我知道 我看見她 終於 能夠好好看著 我們將 一同甦醒過來 那個銀亮的 植物葉片般的東西 微微地上下飄移 如呼吸般 但無重力感的 is it shedding off or not?    (2021/02/27  7:10-7:22) ++++++++ 突然有一個難言的感覺 (為什麼會這樣...) 昨晚和今天看了自己寫下的文字之後 現在我感覺 (啊...) 到底是什麼呢，我感覺什麼離開了。 (就是...) 藉由我自己的文字 我把身上一些部分 從我自己身上移出 放在那裡 透過我給的文字 我看著它 我一直 感受到 新顯現的 從自己身上的 未發覺過的 又那麼自然的 移除了什麼。從我身上剝離開來。 透明的。 而我要說...的是... 我感覺自己即將可以... 重新... 這些... 去回應我思索過的夢想。 這是...由於我與這些思索一致，由於我... 信任，做出思索的自身。 即將能夠... 動身前往各處。 埋在地底下17年的蟬。 讓自己，脫除套用他人意識的習慣。 (recent days) ++++++++++ I'm giving myself something. that is... I know I need to do this for whatever reasons (this subject that I give things to, is) tucked  inside... tenderness is what it needs... to carefully notice. sometimes...or always, it's too translucent when seeing, visually it's invisible. but at the same time I ...

  the spirituality      靈性 is the heat, the energy      是熱力，能源 the body      身體 is the fuel, the material      是燃材 靈性 對身體的作用      the energy  等同 燃燒，發出光亮的      burns on the fuel 火焰      emits light and fire flaming      燃燒 into ashes      成為灰燼 on the ground      滯留地表 the nutrients of life      的生命養分 that is      即 the affection      情感 the content of memory      回憶的內容物 death      死亡 seems like      看起來 we are  creatures      我們是 made out of      自 decease      死亡代謝而來的造物 這個能量，給予身體、心智腦部      this energy enlightens the body, the mind and brain 亦      it also 消耗著它      consumes it 有人是燦爛炫目而短暫的煙火      some are dazzling blaze of fireworks...

you know, other people might know about you, just like you might know the others. because of this connected consciousness. 'trust' is actually a  direction to make things happen. 我與七海有強烈的共鳴，顯現出嚮往。 但與五条有一種「無感」的重疊性。 這是因為身為「人類」我使用同理心來彼此「連接」，因此有「共情的互動」模式。 而靈性是沒有分割的連續體，因此隨即通聯。 情感是靠近星球地表的，豐富、多樣、形貌的。 空靈，是細小粒子的、透明化的、未聚合的、未顯型的。 當我感受自身所處的共情狀態時，我感受到了重量。旋繞。 當我在靈魂的中心時，我感覺單一質地的寧靜。輕盈。 所以我與自己的twin flame無法進入人類的情感模式， 當我嘗試這麼做的時候，我感覺到荒謬至極的痛苦。 創作人的思緒靈感，可能是群集連通的地帶，能夠感染傳遞。 我投入了思考的創造(無論是已在腦中形成音訊，或是刻寫成文字)， 然後在不同的時刻，或是即時同步地，看見了不同形式的回音呼應、成形顯像。 maybe just maybe, by doing this, I can feed on my own soul, this mind that yearns for nutrients of spirituality. is it possible that people give up the resources inside to accustom to where we are? 人們是否以為「為了進入這個世界」而不得不刻意忽略內在龐大的資源? 有限的時空vs無限的資源與創造能量? 一個生命主(life owner生命擁有者)，他自身內在大致有生理面和串連靈性的精神面。 不同的個體，它們內在層面的分佈有比例上的不同，取決於他們是否被「允許」，或是是否能「自行選擇」，去擴展生理面或心靈面。 並不是生理面生存條件良好就能發展靈性。 有時候可能是相反。 太過意識於身體的補充與投注，可能會停頓於一處。這個停頓是從靈性意識的層面來觀看的樣貌。 奉獻或追求物質更是徹底的偏離。 真正注意力的分散。 所以。 如偶物般被驅使操控著...

情感， 是 靈魂的 產物 以及 代謝物 靈性的能量，經由意識下沉 進入 心智運作 處理 原因是 形體化、物質化 人體/生物體，與其相關的一切 回憶的重量，由此累積、產生 堆疊在 星球地表 成為 來自死亡的養分， 「生命」的前後交界。 ------------------------------------ 情感，是靈性進入時空的轉稱。 是「時間化」過後的， 回憶屬性的 無形物。 情感， 由心智處理，需要「 意志 」的認可，也就是 個體主人 的參與。 it's seeable to tell whether or not a person processed what's inside. or whether one is capable to. if yes, that person is with true energy. if not, pretentions. it means, only people who own their own affections and emotions,  will achieve greatness will they convert (processing by the mind) the emotions (spirituality descend through consciousness) into the nutrients of life (death, the memory, the past). 真正妥善處理並持握了自身情感的個體， 才有真正的力量。 他們轉換(心智處理)了從靈性 而來(經由意識)的情感養分(死亡、記憶、過去)。 這個過程是shedding 脫落、流瀉、傾吐。 看起來是所謂的letting go 但不夠精確。 意義在於，意志的認可。 意識的觀看。 取回、保有，才能夠吸收其中的養分。 轉換 能量。 由靈性來滋養， 而非，形式意義的物質。 畢竟， 物質與形式， 依然是 被造物、顯形物。 實質 我們汲取著靈魂握有的養分(能量)。 對象徵物 注入 高度能量的意念 是日常必要之事。 Sumikko 2021/02/27 14:52 Hualien, Taiwan.

  you wanna see what they see from their view you wanna feel how they feel in their body... and then, see how this soul looks like oh it's 'beautiful'... my soul... only this way for me to see myself to get down here with this consciousness and see it dancing inside here because, it's the only way to see it move like this on the plain... it's wonderful it's, perfect at all time...

當你看到牠的眼睛時 會進入一種 腦部的真空狀態 這有點像是 把腦暫時關閉 消音/波 的效果 但是，眼睛會跟著牠那樣 睜大而放鬆 瞬間充電 牠往後微折的耳朵告訴你 牠可能有點警覺著 右爪停在旁邊 但感覺上牠還不確定 那隻爪的存在... 牠可能 不確定自己在哪裡 但是牠腦中的淨空感 有強大的能量 牠不需在乎 不需自覺 有著完美的本能與自然天性 一身毛茸茸的橘 Sumikko 2021/02/24 22:33 Hualien, Taiwan.

  內心的騷，美味的感覺。 在深處，受著張力 壓縮的。 濃重的 陳酒般的 烈味。 沁 讓人吶喊的 疼痛的。 將要撕裂的。 燒傷的。 （快要離題了） 苦的。 昏厥的。 要遺忘的。 反白的 反白了，的。 不知醒睡的。 回味的。 重演的。 錯視的 疑問的。 檢視的。 遺忘的 記得的 述說。 make it deep. I think I have already known that a long time ago. wow... 22:47

this aggravating, exasperating thing. is that, we you using the same system that's been 2 to 3 hundred years old  to en- labor yourselves. industrialization. commercialization. assigning new lives with purposes made from governmental entitlements.  self-imprison-ness with self-amusement of isms like capitalism, consumerism, globalization-ism. put prices on things you see, digitalization. chopping down precious botanic lives that's greater than you in time or in energy value. keep labeling things. keep extracting stuff for research. like you are the owner. wasting time on calculating. I guess it's because you are bored. on this planet. so you tricked yourself to own a lot of symbols, like children play with paper money. (well, I just saw a big chunk of garbage in my head) tell me how have we been changed for these long past bulk of time? vulnerable lives of human being. they are mostly blank at the beginning of their time. before we are allowed to shape them, we re-shape our...

I can't cry for the physical end of a life. I only lament the cease of the affection stuck inside the motions of Memory. That's why forgetfulness is a merit for surviving. a technique  an allowance to go through 'time'. and that time, is built up  with memories. this interlocked perception. is the greatest horror I've ever seen. when I saw the life of a Barbie doll.  as a child, playing, watching commercials. I felt chilled inside. I tried to enjoy lifetime before. for about ten to twelve years. and. there's nothing else other than this  silence  in me all the other sounds are  noises of null. this body, this brain, this compounds of organs, of inertia with feelings seem immovable. wonderments. looks like it might be that we had known things 'before'  that we are searching to know 'now'. while the memories are diminished (By ourselves), and the feelings are kept on going (By ourselves as well). see saw.  up and down back and forth twirling.  ...

we  need waves  of vitality.  it's the same thing like feelings/emotions and the memories/visions. which is, the content and the carrier/form. waves of vitality, stored in forms besides music. Food. is a easily mistaken one. misused, sometimes tragically, or hilariously. oh the religion. we make waves of sound with voices or instruments. direct expression of soul. with great effects. carrying emotions, thoughts, feelings, visions... mass amount of information. do from good to harm, it depends. since food is the source of body's energy, human beings are somehow bonded with the fears of food-less-ness. in genes/memories, you name it. so we tangle energy and food together, actually sometimes take the opposite one. stuffing mass amount of food inside the body due to wrong chases of vitality. we need food carrying useful energy. if not, they are garbage for the poor body to waste time processing. body food is only one part of 'food' we need. absorbed by digest system. the mi...

People after beauty they yearn for great decease. 陽台靜止的小蜜蜂，精巧透明，咖啡色的翅 彎曲的褶，天成的設計，在陽光下，透著琉璃的光澤。 眼閉，永眠般，不受驚擾。 閃耀著，生命美麗的見證。 我將它收進抽屜，和花鳳蝶，放在一起。 一部分的我，總是，這樣，和它們一同沉睡。 這樣奢侈的寧靜。 生命，是承受之物。 暫停，是美麗的逝。 我們作畫，拍照，攝影，為了看見美好的畫面。 記憶，圖片與影像的組件構成，充滿了死亡的意念。 我們在其中，又提取了些什麼，去揉出，類似新生之物。 所能依靠的，只有情感。 Sumikko 2021/02/20 22:03 Hualien, Taiwan.

塑造。 同樣。 人類，穿衣， 只是因為身上沒有禦寒的毛。 絕非羞恥之心。 let me see the sexiness so I can feel alive. they say to the others. of course without a sound. I'm just like any other plants when the sun is shining. basking in the light is what I want only. I pretended to be needy. and when it reminded me, I looked away. life we make for ourselves started from the imagining of human origins. if you remember things, then why would you imagine? if you choose not to remember, then what is it? you are afraid. because, you can't accept the fact or happenings, about who you actually are. so you have to brain wash yourself, and definitely do the same to your descendants. you make it up with these advancements. to fill up the hole inside you. yes, how would you know about life that could be this way. you are a victim sort of thing. paint it up, paint it out. paint whatever you like. you gave them meanings. words. languages. forms. logic. philosophy. so you can hold on to the advance designed by your view. people...

(重寫，可能與高中時的我，毫無關聯的，同題。) when I open up my eyes  當我睜開雙眼 the view I see is right  眼前的畫面感覺很好 I feel the silence of inside  我感受到心裡的沉靜 this needlessness  不索取的 calm, empty  沉著，淨空 Serene.  寧。 Gold  金 it does not  它不做 react.  反應。 Diamond  鑽石 only cuts itself.  只能被自身切割。 Stillness  寂靜 is how myself I know.  是我所知道的自己。 I saw the world spun up at my eyes.  我看到世界在我眼前轉動。 felt the image of the Earth motions  感受著地球旋轉的動態影像。 when as a 'child'.  在孩童時。 I got a touch of that restlessness  我觸碰到那個，躁動 which I can still call out from my memory.  至今，我依然能夠提取這段記憶 when I was in other 'countries', I can't feel much changed, only that people seem different, and what they built differed based on where they are.  當我在其他"地方"時，我感覺不到太大的變化，僅是人們與他們的建造物有所差異。 Suddenly they said, we are one family.  突然間，他們說。我們是同源的。 it's not my concern.  這非我所在意之事。 l know about the reason  我想我知道 of struggling with 'feelings'....