Platinum Leaf



記憶的水潭(心智)
撈起雜質廢物後
依然需要等待,回憶的細碎物緩慢下沉

管理者小女孩(意志),待在潭邊
附近那個金銀色的植物葉片(靈魂)
散射著光芒(靈性)

她托著臉,看著(意識)


(02/28 at night)



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(噢天)

我看見光亮的那個
是不是我的靈魂
好像金銀色的
植物構造

小女孩
她沒消失
she is still alive
she is coming back...

她正在活過來
要跟我一起甦醒

我知道
我看見她
終於
能夠好好看著

我們將
一同甦醒過來


那個銀亮的
植物葉片般的東西
微微地上下飄移

如呼吸般
但無重力感的

is it shedding off
or not?   


(2021/02/27  7:10-7:22)




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突然有一個難言的感覺
(為什麼會這樣...)

昨晚和今天看了自己寫下的文字之後

現在我感覺

(啊...)

到底是什麼呢,我感覺什麼離開了。


(就是...)


藉由我自己的文字
我把身上一些部分
從我自己身上移出
放在那裡

透過我給的文字
我看著它


我一直感受到
新顯現的
從自己身上的
未發覺過的
又那麼自然的


移除了什麼。從我身上剝離開來。
透明的。


而我要說...的是...
我感覺自己即將可以...

重新...

這些...


去回應我思索過的夢想。

這是...由於我與這些思索一致,由於我...
信任,做出思索的自身。


即將能夠...
動身前往各處。


埋在地底下17年的蟬。

讓自己,脫除套用他人意識的習慣。


(recent days)



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I'm giving myself something.

that is...



I know I need to do this
for whatever reasons


(this subject that I give things to, is)
tucked 
inside...


tenderness
is what it needs...

to carefully notice.


sometimes...or always,
it's too translucent
when seeing, visually it's invisible.
but at the same time I am looking at it.
knowing what I'm watching...
with barely viewing the shape
and it's right there...


(yes we draw...)
I ask my dad to draw things for me, little child. memory data.

delineate

elucidate
explicate
illuminate
expound
set forth


the something to give is...


re-form-ation...



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那兩個藍亮海洋的夢
是我們來源的構造,兩個性別。
今天醒來時,意識到

如果不寫下,並再次process
我可能無法得知。


那個2.5次元
半立體,半平面的
海洋,藍綠色空氣的

房子後門裡,白色水泥高臺上的箱盒
藏有訊息的,我打開了嗎?

那是卵子。

另一個海洋的夢,是雄性的構造。


(recent days, forgotten)



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有時候,靈魂,噢靈魂...
you don't know what to do with it
when it's strong and alive...
有時候,它閃耀著令你流淚的眩光
and you cannot look away...
因為,it's in you...

只能,盡可能,追上它...

有時候,它告訴我
trust it, trust the body
trust to let it do the heal
trust them all

trust your feelings
trust your instincts

trust that things come along to you

trust your wishes...


that you ever made.

(wow, I'm watching my soul dancing...)


the real matter is that, 
it never stopped dancing, 
it's me. whether 'I' notice or not...

now I see. all attention.

and I would, train myself to keep up.
to receive, more and more promptly.



so using the same thinking
I can infer that

even when the self isn't sure of,
the self can still trust the soul
or sometimes called intuition,
since it is always 'on'.

to the self, it's hard because it needs 
visualized objects to 'judge'.
this comes from the objectivity of 'self' itself.


(more than a week ago)