The origin of human being's self hatred
is that we lack of
innate weapons / defenses
and instinctive acts
like other creatures have
Thus we still roll with this
sense of crises
that've been long kept
deep in our memories
Maybe some of us
still need to get to
their "deserved" lives
by going through
the ritual of fighting
whatever the reason is
as long as they can
struggle for something
Like it's ridiculously hard
for them to see
how they are blinded by themselves
while ironically claiming to be
the king of all species
All the above
just with this simple
and single cognition
caused
most of the problems
mentally and realistically
in human histories
past and present
right now
Also
from this lack
we gain
and develop
thriving
All together
treasured brilliances
sadness of callousness
Scale
swaying violently
toppling like a joke
Break yourself
into two or more parts
in order to
reach the boundaries
in opposite directions
You hate yourself
So when an innocent
loves him/herself without a doubt
you feel disagreed
You feel disturbed
don't you?
you want to hurt them
(but you will tell yourself another story)
because of your own blackness
reflected by their spotless shines
(like a flawless mirror)
You hate yourself
because of no one else
but you
yet you can't admit that
so you make up any kind of excuses
for you to accuse them
criminating
those undefiled ones
And gradually
you brainwashed yourself
that they are devils
(you hate yourself)
thinking that you are haunted
possessed
needing rescues
from your "holy realm"
(and oddly claiming yourself guilty
confessing in a small chamber
about your repentance)
(you hate yourself)
not knowing that
(and will never see)
the very devil
is exactly you
You
a human
hurt
another creature
just like you
because
self hatred
allows you to do so
twisted entitlements
justified brutalities
You look away
covering this irksomeness up
with self praising
with approvals
with story telling
with image modeling
glorifying
this you
with constructed sophistication
and hide behind it
(you hate yourself)
You can't stay alone with yourself
can't stand to touch your own thoughts
That's why you need to own
a party or parties of people
(your puppets)
to make sure that
you are worshiped
like a god
(the only truth is that
you hate yourself
isn't it so?)
All these miserable idiocies
come from this
stupid mentality
「self denying」
Are humans weak?
Of course, why not!
They can't do anything
when they are newly born
so needy and annoying
as they "grow up"
It's exactly why we part away
from all the other creatures
the very reason that we are
self-defined "remarkable"
Are humans disgusting?
Of course, why not!
Some of them consider
they own things they "discover"
Do human "children" hate their "parents"?
Of course, why not!
See how they ask these youngsters
to achieve things they themselves can't
and how some manipulate them like objects
in the name of parenting
or how some even forbid those young ones
to be what they want to become, asking them
only to be exactly the same as themselves
(or even worse, how they thought they were
in their deluded mind)
Just accept it
this ugly hatred toward yourself
Just admit that
you hate your own species
like unbearable waste
then maybe
you don't need to go through the path of
becoming twisted, troublesome
bullying narcissists
who are
self-blinding all their lives
just to conceal the fact
that they've already smothered their own souls
by denying the truth of
self hatred
Face your own darkness
and you will discover
by the constant watching
over this gloom (which is
intrinsic in this species)
in this body and mind
of YOU
it is slowly put down
converted into
a piece of information
for you to look closely into
You then become
the one who own it
rather than
the one being owned
Sumikko
2021/04/27 20:54 Taiwan, Hualien.