gratefulness

I remember, I was kissed by him, and him too. before they went to work. while I was almost awake, half sleeping.

  just like the drawing I saw.

I wish I could see that, me being kissed like this by him and him. maybe another him before.

I was blessed with such moments.

and with tremendous amount of other ones.

But I noticed that, I could not bear to continue. because...

of the tiresome inside of me.

which was a natural status.

I can't help choosing the truth, instead of ideas of making up.

into a long term deal.

to preserve it like processed food, in order to taste later in life.

I cherish them, the men I was in love with. the days of those times.

and myself being affected and influenced by them respectively.

I noticed my changes being with these different significant others. I noticed how they've changed because of me.

and I went back to myself again.

I really like how they were before we blended together...

can't we stay who we are while being together? I heard my own words.

to always stay fresh with another life owner. with another fresh mind.

I wish and hope that.

being alive with the one I love.

stay inside of me, and respect both of us.

to feel truthfully safe.

to thank them whenever a day ends.

Sumikko

2021/02/12 02:00